an email worth contemplating! sorry for the language, but i'm leaving it as is
Hola amigos, como estan?I just read about 235 emails from most of you ladies and decided that I should get some communication happening just like you guys.
First off: No pictures yet, I have computer difficulties at home and find it really difficult to go to wal-mart and spend a bunch of cash. But, as I get some more money saved up I will get around to it.
Second: Damn!!! Where are all my girls??? I don't know what the hell happened. One day I was surrounded by all these georgous ladies from all over the continent and the next they are all gone. I miss all of you a great deal... when I let myself think about it. I have gone out to chill with a friend that is a couple of years younger than I (been friends since we were 11 and 8 years old) and he has these two highschool girls that follow him around. Keep in mind these are pretty much the first females I have been around that are relatively close to me in age. They blew me away. These girls were so clueless. It made me realize that I kind of took all of you for granted, but at least I know that there are some badass girls out there and all I have to do is look to find you.
Third: Whoa!!! This country is fuckin wierd. (Sorry about the F word, but sometimes it is the only word that seems to get the point across) I have been working at my Stepdad's bar. We throw so much food away. I could get seriously depressed if I thought about it every time I had to throw away half a chicken sandwich and 2/3 of a salad. I watch people blow 40$ on alcohol in one sitting and can't help but wonder "Is there anything better that these people are trying to do with the other 40$ they have in their wallet?"
So it has been hard for me to return to this land of vast luxury. I see everyone spending butt-loads of cash on things that do nothing for them and nothing for anyone else. (I am starting to sound bleak, but don't give up on me) I just wish that I had the ability to snap my fingers and show them that they could seriously improve their own life as well as the lives of others all over the world if they would only broaden their horizons and think beyond their own moment to moment self-gratification. If my friends took one night a week and saved the money they spend on beer and smokes they could probably do something comparable to what we did. How much would that change their lives? I feel like I will never be quite the same person as the slightly younger guy that left his home for a 32 days. I can only thanks God, or the world, or whatever got me there with all of you.
Four: Damn I feel good being back here. Despite all of the eerie things like escaldes with 20 inch rims and aisles upon aisles of useless crap, I feel like I am enjoying my life more than ever. I feel like I have seen, if even only briefly, that I am incredibly fortunate. I have so many resources at my fingertips it is almost dizzying. All I have to do now is decide what I want to do and where I want to go and KAZZAAM I can be there in a matter of months. I feel the doors have been blown wide open and my life is suddenly like an open book that I can write myself. I hope some of you are having the same feelings. I hope all of you have a new sense potential for your life. i know that every single one of us has nagging thoughts everyday about the waste in our Consumer society, and I image that most of you, like me, fall asleep and wake up thinking about the DR and the people we met there. I know that it isn't exactly easy for any of us to be back all of a sudden and have to re-evaluate our daily lives. But i hope that I am not the only who feels like the air is fresher everywhere I go since I took that little trip to do some volunteer work in the Dominican Republic. I hope all of you have bigger and better visions for the next few years of your lives.
OK, sappy-melodramatic time is over. I can only handle so much of it when I am the one writing it... I hope ya'all don't have to stop reading and run to the bathroom to barf after reading that mooshy stuff. None-the-less, I meant every word. And it feels really good to write to you. Talking with friends and family is good and all, but writing this I know that what I say will be understood becuase I am talking to people who have been through (and are going through what I am) the same experience.
So if you made it this far congratulations you have amazing email reading stamina. I love all of you and miss all of you and sincerely hope I get to see one of you soon. Maybe at crossroads in the future...
Peace, Jeffrey Scott Johnson
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